Life's Heat

Far from an understanding of the norm in my findings
I am left bewildered at its redefinition to self by our minds
I met her rough, life almost squeezed out of her
Here I was so hot and heated up about life
I knew I liked her so much and wanted to be close
Try imagining the smile on my face when she gave me the same dose
We agreed taking the same prescription of the lovetocin
*So you smiled right here, Let's continue*
Now you smiled again
All of a sudden, she became wet with tears
Always crying cos she knew she was trying so hard
Little did she know I was only acting like my iron
I needed the tears to make her realise her errors
It would also help me straighten out areas that were difficult
And she wouldn't get burnt from the heat
Trust me, she came out smooth in the end
Amazing how we need to go through life's heat accompanied by our tears
Just because we need to be straightened out and come out better
I am glad God is the one controlling my life's heat
So I am sure whatever heat he brings my way is what I can handle
Are you ready to get under the heat?
I did already so don't ask me
But who is controlling your heat?

The Speaking Heart
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The End

There really is no end to this story cause this is the end
That pretty girl has a lot beneath that face
That face, the eyes filling up a well of tears
She never seems to run dry cause you always drill them out
Out of my way, you keep saying to her
Forgetting when you said, I want you to be my side
My side, it used to be a place of comfort
A place of comfort, she grew uncomfortable in,  you say
You say that cause you weren't ready to accommodate it anymore
She wasn't who you thought she was but she never lied
She never lied to you about her having excesses,
Excesses you could only see cause she decided to be close to you
Close to you, she felt the distance of the earth to the moon
The moon became friends with her cause they spoke every night
Every night filled with tears, he had to put to her sleep
Sleep came when his friend the moon needed to put this beauty to bed
To bed, she sleeps so quietly in the midst of it all
All I wish is for you to realise what I don't want you to
To love until it hurts, cause there can be no more hurt but only more love
Loving the sound of silence is worse than comfortable misery
Comfortable misery is preferred to even the sweetest sorrow

The Speaking Heart
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The Future

He said I am waiting right here
Still here in the midst of it all
I stared right through his eyes
But staring so deep, I saw myself
Seeing myself so clearly through his eye's lenses
Then, right now and the next second makes me tense
I looked forward to the next second cause that's who he was
He said I am waiting right here and now
But I never seemed to get a hold of him
Cause every time I thought I had him within my grasp
He became my next second with a new now
He really actually is here cause all I have to do is see him
It's crazy how I thought I looked forward to him
When he had been here all along
The future, yes him, is here

The Speaking Heart
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The strength of his weakness

She felt marred, he saw her as made
She felt broken, he was willing to pick up the pieces
She felt unloved, he didn't mind giving it all to her
And when she cried, he made his shoulders available
So tired of the vulnerability, he was willing to be her strength
"Forever is just a start" he whispered
She never realized how much of his weakness she was
He figured out he had to be her strength
Without strength in a weakness and weakness in strength, the passion for perfection is never born
Her weaknesses only made him realize how strong he has to be
The more she revealed, the stronger he became
The more she opened up, the closer he came
"Stay with me" He offered
Let's build together homes that can withstand stormy weather
Let's build together and tell stories that have no end
"Be my queen" cause I need your gene to build a long lasting generation
Cause with you am not letting go until forever becomes a calendar date.

The Speaking heart
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My Reflection

He told me what he wanted and I didn't feel able
I laughed real hard cause it seemed impossible
He smiled angrily cause I thought he was joking
All of a sudden I cried happily cause I just got broken
How do I reflect all of you, I'd crack and probably shatter
He said we would get through the process together
He said I want you to be my mirror
I chose you because you can be molded if you let me
I know you are a poor reflector like glass, am sure they told you
But you'd shine brighter when you are not transparent
Cause the world won't understand you
I want to coat you cause I am more precious than Silver or Gold
I will strengthen you and make you withstand extreme temperatures
Not only would you reflect my light but my sound too
I want you to be my mirror cause they need to know me through you

Find Your Place

My eyes decided to see each other for the first time
To discuss which of them saw the ear first
While the other fingers wondered why the ring finger was the only one with a vein to the heart
And toenails wondered why fingernails grow nearly 4times faster than them
And then the brain uses 20% of the total oxygen produced by the body
I can't please everybody, Life said to herself
I believe everything is in proportion unless something just has to change
Do you know how much energy it takes for me to create new connections cause of a new memory you just had, Brain replied
But the skin retorted that the brain feels no pain like her
Life isn't about competing but finding your place and functioning
You will find your purpose and happiness there
So find it!!!!!!!!!!!

Love's Timing

Time might not heal but it reveals

It has no eyes but it sure sees
The reflection of who we truly are
Unmasking the secrets of those who are
Now I canvass with time with deep intents
I asked" Should I love her closely or from afar"
He said" The closer you get, the more you are blind, the farther you are the more you are blind"
Gazing up there, I realized when you truly love, the less of a reality you see while building the reality you see
Time differs in its time difference only by timely inference

Beyond the face

His heart increased its pace as he sighted her afar off
Muttering so many voiceless words without meaning to mere minds...On fleek
Her passing by confirmed his definition of beauty
A definition he defined through experience and fantasies
Stirring up a desire and boldness to come closer
The more he saw, the less of what he saw is what he saw
Finally he was disappointed because of the synonyms and antonyms he realized
To the definition of beauty he studied seeing her brain ,,,So asleep
He left broken because he could not find a solid foundation for a conversation
He could not create the connection he desired cause her soul was .... So weak
The more he reached out, the more attenuated her love signals were
What's the use of being on Fleek if your brain is asleep and your soul is so weak

Sincere Love

So much laughter, dancing in the rain
Not minding getting wet.....fun
Walking the pathway of the mall
Holding hands together, giggling and all
Sharing a popcorn while watching a movie...all rosy
"Such an amazing relationship"
But you scared to have a misunderstanding so no one leaves
And you scared to point out flaws to avoid quarrels
You take it all in, in the name of love
Hmmmm.....
But love corrects...
And love scolds too
So all you do is create fun moments but avoid truths like a plague
Telling each other sweet words without hard corrections
Why jump into a ship if you not going to get better?
Why keep investing and yielding same interest?
Addition is sweet but multiplication is sweeter

By: Pamilerin Akinlosotu

My Identity

Every single time I think I know what I want
Am back to that feeling of a baby so lost
Who is being told what to do just at that moment
And he is living his life based on a syllabus by his parents
Sure you'd pass the test by living up to their standard
Growing up according to the rules by your stern dad
Getting to the next stage through the next page feeling sad
What if i set my own rules, won't it be based on his foundation?
I just have to live that life I see in my dreams cos its my salvation
Hoping to my own life's syllabus is gonna be another translation
And then I am lost for words cause I can't find its meaning
A dictionary of words whose meanings are lost in in its synonym
That's what I have realized whenever I simply try to be like him

When He Loves

He asked, I refused
With no idea of the journey
Why should I follow
Not withstanding, He stayed back
With days of not knowing what to do, He was my wisdom
At cold nights, He kept me warm
No matter how hard I fell, He was always there to pick me up
I would grumble, He would smile
I would complain, He would ignore
He would ask for a walk, I would refuse
Nothing I did stopped His love
I would run away, He would come looking for me
The harder I pushed the closer He came
'I am damaged' I said, He replied, 'I will fix you'
Why won't you just leave me alone?
'Because I love you' He said
I don't deserve it
You don't know me
Broken, damaged, rejected, abandoned
Troubled, confused and lost
Negative, fearful and proud
Pulling me close, with a whisper ' I know all that'
I still love you.
He asked again, this time it was a yes
...it's been beautiful

No more keys

With the house and its doors
But the keys thrown away
Not bondage but decision based
We stayed
 
Realising this was the last bus stop
No testing grounds
Straight road, no extra passengers
We stayed
 
With arguments and nights of no communication
With no love lost
Instead bond got stronger
We stayed
 
Even in long walks
Walking apart
With hands bumping
We stayed
 
Coming to an agreement
Sealing it by holding hands
Signifying not letting go
We stayed
 
Not feeling stuck
But embracing decisions
Fighting emotions 
We stayed

What do we do?

Amazing how much we fight for
Putting every effort calling it all
Running before the gun shot
Does fate really exist?
The " it's too late now" phrase
Does it really come to play?
Maybe someone just missed a line in the script
Could be me or you jumping a scene
Oh here comes time deciding the wait or hurry
I need to understand this script
Where does it end?

I thought so

I think I know what she means
Like a tree following the wind's strength
It gets twisted when it's a whirlwind
Going here and there then right back
Shedding leaves cos of a hurt or joy
Then waiting to blossom again
She tells me again she is sure
Then the wind blows again stronger
Until I am almost bent over
So bent that I fall in love
Hoping to stand stronger and grow in love
I think I know.....

Friends

Sometimes life is never fair
You think your friends are there
The years you think will be the best
Then turned out to be like the rest
They are always by your side
Helping you when you cried
They saw the friendship script
But chose to act the villain
Hard to see, but very clear
It’s really crystal clear, like a tear
you see them now in memories
Friends they say

Hold me

I need someone to hold
Give me a jacket when I'm cold
And under the sheets we'll fold
A beautiful sculpture we will mould
As we find the sweetest hold
Oh yes it's someone with whom I'll grow old
I will be his lady and he my Lord
Cherishing each other's place in the fold
When you find that special one
Please just hold.....

Not what I saw in my head

In my heart my world screams,

For in my soul, it’s been broken.

By lives promises left unfulfilled.

As a child, I dreamt only of happy days,

rainbows, sunshine and butterflies.

Days with clear blue skies, bright smiles.

I never imagined pain, nor did I

imagine death or hurt  

bitterness that hunts ones soul.

Never had I thought nor did I wonder

where ones spirit lived, if it could be

extracted, if it could be bound or

healed after its been injured.

I couldn't perceive days, where lies

and pretence were the bases of

our conversations, where we long

for true acceptance yet hide

beneath shadows of ourselves.

Where love will never be enough

while understanding and happiness

are myths brought to you by the

channels of your mind, an epic mind

game no one ever wins.

So I pick up the pieces of my life, 

It makes no sense why the puzzles won’t fit together.

Beyond recognition or anything one’s mind could comprehend.

Broken beyond repair.

In my heart my world screams,

For in my soul, it’s been broken.

By life's promises left unfulfilled.

Author: Efe Eluma

That Strange Familiar

Take me to that old familiar place

Where I first saw that strange friendly face

With such a face so familiar

Almost called my family a liar

Cos we looked so much like me

Thought I made it a complete family

Seeing you was like bread crowned with butter

So I made up my mind there is no other but her

Be that old strangely familiar friendly face

I so want to fit in so tight at the lace

So I would run with you at any pace

Making us feel different in shoe sizes, say no to the feet

We would win and stay together saying no to defeat

As our differences make us stay more

Like them north and south pole

People be pulling us apart like them fingers on the magnet

Live Life

Everybody dies but not everyone lives
You have life in you but still not alive
You just walked past but no one noticed, Ghost
You say you're shy keeping all your ideas down, that's a burial
Greatness is in every man who at least knows he's a man
Bringing it out if he can by popping the can
Forget those who keep judging you like SAN
Who think they can because they formed the CAN
Its only a matter of time before you are out of their LAN
And then God vindicates you in your PAN for a WAN
Its high time we lived our lives feeling alive
Instead of having life without a life
Or being alive in your self dug up grave
Cmon, have life, a life by being alive in this life
And let your story be read in another's life

The Bleeding Heart

It doesn't relate anymore cos I thought it was you
Finding out that you was never just a you but you and you
How does what gives you joy kill you slowly
Could it be that it really wasn't a joy after all
That face used to make you smile but it turned out to be just a phase
Starting well as a beautiful game until you realised it wasn't modded
The gold and coins weren't unlimited with no cheap medals
It gets really hard when it seems or is written easy
This hurts real bad losing a beloved
She has now become quondam
She doesn't seem to be prima facie
Now in a kingdom where you are not a citizen
This hurts real bad letting a beloved go
How do they say it, "Its for the best"
That word has always been the best paradox
I swear this hurts

I miss her

I do miss her so much, the times we spent together
We went to all the exotic places together
And dined with the likes of Gucci and Luis Vuitton
I realized how much I needed her when she left
How even my friends left me because she left
She is cheating on me now with some other guy
She played me real good because I played around with her
She messed with my head so hard because I couldn't help but show off
But I did take her serious so I wish she would say she was just joking
I would tell you her name so just in case you see her
Let her know I miss her cause we have got the best of captured moments and cause her sister always welcomed me when I went to see her
She'd say "Welcome, please enter your pin" cos she gave me her key
People envied us together, saying we looked pretty good
Pls help me find money cos I miss her so much

The Meeting Point

The arguments lingered
The target was understanding but every time they missed a shot
What was wrong?
In the same room but she couldn't hear him
She shouted at the top of her voice
He still couldn't hear her
She wasn't far away, but yet he couldn't reach her
What was wrong?
The love existed....
But what was wrong?
Someone got distracted
But who?
Did that really matter? Pointing fingers, problems not solved
Someone stopped trying
But who?
What happened to the altar?
The place of divine communication
How did they slip away from His presence?
No wonder the struggle was real
No wonder it got difficult daily
She never stopped trying, She just redirected her silence to Him
Still in the same room but walls apart
Go back to him, He has all the answers
Let's meet with the one who can fix it all

GIRL ARISE

You weren't made to sit and cry all day with the excuse of being emotional.
You weren't made to act based on their reactions.
You weren't made to settle for standards that don't match your stands.
You weren't structured to bend to structures created to break your structure.
Who told you had to compete with and for everything?
So you see her as a threat and she doesn't even have you in her thoughts.
So you feel you had got to compete to prove a point when she doesn't know you exist.
Girl arise
And when it's not HER, it's HIM
Living off his validation to scale through the day
And when there's no compliment, you carry a long face all day
And when he says "I love you", you arise like the sun
Girl arise
Don't feel judged, we most have being there
Hurt, broken, raped, depressed, disappointed....
Girl arise
He made you in His image and your validation and contentment is only complete in Him

You and I together

If it's depth could be as deep as deep
Then it's distance can't be farther than close
Cos it's in such memories of you, I see true meanings
I have fallen deeply, closer than your breath
I am a dictionary of verbs with silent screams
Help me show you how actions speak louder
I will cause our lightening with a silent thunder
All will see our sparks but will not under our frictions
I want to stay having the highest shares in your heart
I won't even allow your heart go public
I want all to see we can do it together
And hope they see the world through our eyes

The Groove of Trust

There goes my beat, that unending rhythm
So steady with that time signature
Then comes the breaks with its sick nature
The more you feel out, you are in for sure
All I had to do was know it's gonna be right
As long as I stay in perfect harmony with all my might
It amazes me when I realize it's all about timing
So even when it seems am wrong, Its simply an odd timing
As long as everyone and no one enjoys the groove
I pursue peace and harmony with my grooves and listening groovers
All it takes is a simple believe it's gonna be nice and just
It's that groove and beat I love called Trust

Just listen

I am done giving up on giving up
If saying it hurts, not saying it cuts deeper
Am in a state of doing my undoing
Don't go but staying makes you farther
It's how I feel that makes me feel
How can I become that which I hate
Hating that which I hate in love
Unknowingly it creeps in deeper
And grows watered by my tears
Sunned by my beam of smiles
I am done holding on without a ray of hope
Like one dangling at the end of a pendulum bob
Your love you said was all you could give
Even then my heart's desires were never met
Gradually I knew I was losing grip
Now I am not sure I was ever your heart's fill
Can my tears fill up our love tank?
Can I walk you down the aisle, hand in hand?

Let me love you

If it's depth could be as deep as deep
Then it's distance can't be farther than close
Cos it's in such memories of you, I see true meanings
I have fallen deeply, closer than your breath
I am a dictionary of verbs with silent screams
Help me show you how actions speak louder
I will cause our lightening with a silent thunder
All will see our sparks but will not under our frictions
I want to stay having the highest shares in your heart
I won't even allow your heart go public
I want all to see we can do it together
And hope they see the world through our eyes.

Just Friends

Yeah I know it feels weird
But it's too beautiful to be bad
Now it's scary cos it might be a masquerade
If we happen to be more than what we are
Now that's cos we have become more than I can describe
No one understands when I sing all that jazz
It's already more than the music for mature minds
They go with the sarcastic reply "Just friends, yeah right"
And then I am lost in my definition
A new synonym is added in its oxymoron
She has become my doubted confidante
But only to the minds who refuse to see
If am gonna kick that bucket, it's definitely not your water in it

Love me for me

I can't make you do it anymore
Why wouldn't you just return it?
The sun knows when to go down
The moon says to herself "I'm up next"
But then the moon just reflects rays from the sun
As it continues orbiting the sun in the long run
No competition in all this, let me be there for you
And you be there for me when I am down
Let me rub off on you based on the moments created
Show me who you spend time with and you'd see their reflection in you
I need you to be there for me and cover me in my dark
So please love me for me in all times and phases
Cos together we will have our renewals like the full and new moon
Standing by even at my brightest time too
I can't make you do it anymore cos it's all about Love and Respect