Just listen

I am done giving up on giving up
If saying it hurts, not saying it cuts deeper
Am in a state of doing my undoing
Don't go but staying makes you farther
It's how I feel that makes me feel
How can I become that which I hate
Hating that which I hate in love
Unknowingly it creeps in deeper
And grows watered by my tears
Sunned by my beam of smiles
I am done holding on without a ray of hope
Like one dangling at the end of a pendulum bob
Your love you said was all you could give
Even then my heart's desires were never met
Gradually I knew I was losing grip
Now I am not sure I was ever your heart's fill
Can my tears fill up our love tank?
Can I walk you down the aisle, hand in hand?