His heart increased its pace as he sighted her afar off
Muttering so many voiceless words without meaning to mere minds...On fleek
Her passing by confirmed his definition of beauty
A definition he defined through experience and fantasies
Stirring up a desire and boldness to come closer
The more he saw, the less of what he saw is what he saw
Finally he was disappointed because of the synonyms and antonyms he realized
To the definition of beauty he studied seeing her brain ,,,So asleep
He left broken because he could not find a solid foundation for a conversation
He could not create the connection he desired cause her soul was .... So weak
The more he reached out, the more attenuated her love signals were
What's the use of being on Fleek if your brain is asleep and your soul is so weak
Tuesday 29 March 2016
Tuesday 22 March 2016
Sincere Love
So much laughter, dancing in the rain
Not minding getting wet.....fun
Walking the pathway of the mall
Holding hands together, giggling and all
Sharing a popcorn while watching a movie...all rosy
"Such an amazing relationship"
But you scared to have a misunderstanding so no one leaves
And you scared to point out flaws to avoid quarrels
You take it all in, in the name of love
Hmmmm.....
But love corrects...
And love scolds too
So all you do is create fun moments but avoid truths like a plague
Telling each other sweet words without hard corrections
Why jump into a ship if you not going to get better?
Why keep investing and yielding same interest?
Addition is sweet but multiplication is sweeter
By: Pamilerin Akinlosotu
Not minding getting wet.....fun
Walking the pathway of the mall
Holding hands together, giggling and all
Sharing a popcorn while watching a movie...all rosy
"Such an amazing relationship"
But you scared to have a misunderstanding so no one leaves
And you scared to point out flaws to avoid quarrels
You take it all in, in the name of love
Hmmmm.....
But love corrects...
And love scolds too
So all you do is create fun moments but avoid truths like a plague
Telling each other sweet words without hard corrections
Why jump into a ship if you not going to get better?
Why keep investing and yielding same interest?
Addition is sweet but multiplication is sweeter
By: Pamilerin Akinlosotu
Wednesday 16 March 2016
My Identity
Every single time I think I know what I want
Am back to that feeling of a baby so lost
Who is being told what to do just at that moment
And he is living his life based on a syllabus by his parents
Sure you'd pass the test by living up to their standard
Growing up according to the rules by your stern dad
Getting to the next stage through the next page feeling sad
What if i set my own rules, won't it be based on his foundation?
I just have to live that life I see in my dreams cos its my salvation
Hoping to my own life's syllabus is gonna be another translation
And then I am lost for words cause I can't find its meaning
A dictionary of words whose meanings are lost in in its synonym
That's what I have realized whenever I simply try to be like him
Am back to that feeling of a baby so lost
Who is being told what to do just at that moment
And he is living his life based on a syllabus by his parents
Sure you'd pass the test by living up to their standard
Growing up according to the rules by your stern dad
Getting to the next stage through the next page feeling sad
What if i set my own rules, won't it be based on his foundation?
I just have to live that life I see in my dreams cos its my salvation
Hoping to my own life's syllabus is gonna be another translation
And then I am lost for words cause I can't find its meaning
A dictionary of words whose meanings are lost in in its synonym
That's what I have realized whenever I simply try to be like him
When He Loves
He asked, I refused
With no idea of the journey
Why should I follow
Not withstanding, He stayed back
With days of not knowing what to do, He was my wisdom
At cold nights, He kept me warm
No matter how hard I fell, He was always there to pick me up
I would grumble, He would smile
I would complain, He would ignore
He would ask for a walk, I would refuse
Nothing I did stopped His love
I would run away, He would come looking for me
The harder I pushed the closer He came
'I am damaged' I said, He replied, 'I will fix you'
Why won't you just leave me alone?
'Because I love you' He said
I don't deserve it
You don't know me
Broken, damaged, rejected, abandoned
Troubled, confused and lost
Negative, fearful and proud
Pulling me close, with a whisper ' I know all that'
I still love you.
He asked again, this time it was a yes
...it's been beautiful
With no idea of the journey
Why should I follow
Not withstanding, He stayed back
With days of not knowing what to do, He was my wisdom
At cold nights, He kept me warm
No matter how hard I fell, He was always there to pick me up
I would grumble, He would smile
I would complain, He would ignore
He would ask for a walk, I would refuse
Nothing I did stopped His love
I would run away, He would come looking for me
The harder I pushed the closer He came
'I am damaged' I said, He replied, 'I will fix you'
Why won't you just leave me alone?
'Because I love you' He said
I don't deserve it
You don't know me
Broken, damaged, rejected, abandoned
Troubled, confused and lost
Negative, fearful and proud
Pulling me close, with a whisper ' I know all that'
I still love you.
He asked again, this time it was a yes
...it's been beautiful
No more keys
With the house and its doors
But the keys thrown away
Not bondage but decision based
We stayed
Realising this was the last bus stop
No testing grounds
Straight road, no extra passengers
We stayed
With arguments and nights of no communication
With no love lost
Instead bond got stronger
We stayed
Even in long walks
Walking apart
With hands bumping
We stayed
Coming to an agreement
Sealing it by holding hands
Signifying not letting go
We stayed
Not feeling stuck
But embracing decisions
Fighting emotions
We stayed
But the keys thrown away
Not bondage but decision based
We stayed
Realising this was the last bus stop
No testing grounds
Straight road, no extra passengers
We stayed
With arguments and nights of no communication
With no love lost
Instead bond got stronger
We stayed
Even in long walks
Walking apart
With hands bumping
We stayed
Coming to an agreement
Sealing it by holding hands
Signifying not letting go
We stayed
Not feeling stuck
But embracing decisions
Fighting emotions
We stayed
Saturday 12 March 2016
What do we do?
Amazing how much we fight for
Putting every effort calling it all
Running before the gun shot
Does fate really exist?
The " it's too late now" phrase
Does it really come to play?
Maybe someone just missed a line in the script
Could be me or you jumping a scene
Oh here comes time deciding the wait or hurry
I need to understand this script
Where does it end?
Putting every effort calling it all
Running before the gun shot
Does fate really exist?
The " it's too late now" phrase
Does it really come to play?
Maybe someone just missed a line in the script
Could be me or you jumping a scene
Oh here comes time deciding the wait or hurry
I need to understand this script
Where does it end?
I thought so
I think I know what she means
Like a tree following the wind's strength
It gets twisted when it's a whirlwind
Going here and there then right back
Shedding leaves cos of a hurt or joy
Then waiting to blossom again
She tells me again she is sure
Then the wind blows again stronger
Until I am almost bent over
So bent that I fall in love
Hoping to stand stronger and grow in love
I think I know.....
Like a tree following the wind's strength
It gets twisted when it's a whirlwind
Going here and there then right back
Shedding leaves cos of a hurt or joy
Then waiting to blossom again
She tells me again she is sure
Then the wind blows again stronger
Until I am almost bent over
So bent that I fall in love
Hoping to stand stronger and grow in love
I think I know.....
Friends
Sometimes life is never fair
You think your friends are there
The years you think will be the best
Then turned out to be like the rest
They are always by your side
Helping you when you cried
They saw the friendship script
But chose to act the villain
Hard to see, but very clear
It’s really crystal clear, like a tear
you see them now in memories
Friends they say
You think your friends are there
The years you think will be the best
Then turned out to be like the rest
They are always by your side
Helping you when you cried
They saw the friendship script
But chose to act the villain
Hard to see, but very clear
It’s really crystal clear, like a tear
you see them now in memories
Friends they say
Hold me
I need someone to hold
Give me a jacket when I'm cold
And under the sheets we'll fold
A beautiful sculpture we will mould
As we find the sweetest hold
Oh yes it's someone with whom I'll grow old
I will be his lady and he my Lord
Cherishing each other's place in the fold
When you find that special one
Please just hold.....
Give me a jacket when I'm cold
And under the sheets we'll fold
A beautiful sculpture we will mould
As we find the sweetest hold
Oh yes it's someone with whom I'll grow old
I will be his lady and he my Lord
Cherishing each other's place in the fold
When you find that special one
Please just hold.....
Not what I saw in my head
In my heart my world
screams,
For in my soul, it’s been
broken.
By lives promises left
unfulfilled.
As a child, I dreamt only of
happy days,
rainbows, sunshine and butterflies.
Days with clear blue skies,
bright smiles.
I never imagined pain, nor
did I
imagine death or hurt
bitterness that hunts ones
soul.
Never had I thought nor did I wonder
where ones spirit lived, if
it could be
extracted, if it could be
bound or
healed after its been injured.
I couldn't perceive days,
where lies
and pretence were the bases
of
our conversations, where we
long
for true acceptance yet hide
beneath shadows of
ourselves.
Where love will never be
enough
while understanding and
happiness
are myths brought to you by
the
channels of your mind, an
epic mind
game no one ever wins.
So I pick up the pieces of
my life,
It makes no sense why the puzzles
won’t fit together.
Beyond recognition or anything
one’s mind could comprehend.
Broken beyond repair.
In my heart my world
screams,
For in my soul, it’s been
broken.
By life's promises left
unfulfilled.
Author: Efe Eluma
Tuesday 8 March 2016
That Strange Familiar
Take me to that old familiar place
Where I first saw that strange friendly face
With such a face so familiar
Almost called my family a liar
Cos we looked so much like me
Thought I made it a complete family
Seeing you was like bread crowned with butter
So I made up my mind there is no other but her
Be that old strangely familiar friendly face
I so want to fit in so tight at the lace
So I would run with you at any pace
Making us feel different in shoe sizes, say no to the feet
We would win and stay together saying no to defeat
As our differences make us stay more
Like them north and south pole
People be pulling us apart like them fingers on the magnet
Live Life
Everybody dies but not everyone lives
You have life in you but still not alive
You just walked past but no one noticed, Ghost
You say you're shy keeping all your ideas down, that's a burial
Greatness is in every man who at least knows he's a man
Bringing it out if he can by popping the can
Forget those who keep judging you like SAN
Who think they can because they formed the CAN
Its only a matter of time before you are out of their LAN
And then God vindicates you in your PAN for a WAN
Its high time we lived our lives feeling alive
Instead of having life without a life
Or being alive in your self dug up grave
Cmon, have life, a life by being alive in this life
And let your story be read in another's life
You have life in you but still not alive
You just walked past but no one noticed, Ghost
You say you're shy keeping all your ideas down, that's a burial
Greatness is in every man who at least knows he's a man
Bringing it out if he can by popping the can
Forget those who keep judging you like SAN
Who think they can because they formed the CAN
Its only a matter of time before you are out of their LAN
And then God vindicates you in your PAN for a WAN
Its high time we lived our lives feeling alive
Instead of having life without a life
Or being alive in your self dug up grave
Cmon, have life, a life by being alive in this life
And let your story be read in another's life
The Bleeding Heart
It doesn't relate anymore cos I thought it was you
Finding out that you was never just a you but you and you
How does what gives you joy kill you slowly
Could it be that it really wasn't a joy after all
That face used to make you smile but it turned out to be just a phase
Starting well as a beautiful game until you realised it wasn't modded
The gold and coins weren't unlimited with no cheap medals
It gets really hard when it seems or is written easy
This hurts real bad losing a beloved
She has now become quondam
She doesn't seem to be prima facie
Now in a kingdom where you are not a citizen
This hurts real bad letting a beloved go
How do they say it, "Its for the best"
That word has always been the best paradox
I swear this hurts
Finding out that you was never just a you but you and you
How does what gives you joy kill you slowly
Could it be that it really wasn't a joy after all
That face used to make you smile but it turned out to be just a phase
Starting well as a beautiful game until you realised it wasn't modded
The gold and coins weren't unlimited with no cheap medals
It gets really hard when it seems or is written easy
This hurts real bad losing a beloved
She has now become quondam
She doesn't seem to be prima facie
Now in a kingdom where you are not a citizen
This hurts real bad letting a beloved go
How do they say it, "Its for the best"
That word has always been the best paradox
I swear this hurts
I miss her
I do miss her so much, the times we spent together
We went to all the exotic places together
And dined with the likes of Gucci and Luis Vuitton
I realized how much I needed her when she left
How even my friends left me because she left
She is cheating on me now with some other guy
She played me real good because I played around with her
She messed with my head so hard because I couldn't help but show off
But I did take her serious so I wish she would say she was just joking
I would tell you her name so just in case you see her
Let her know I miss her cause we have got the best of captured moments and cause her sister always welcomed me when I went to see her
She'd say "Welcome, please enter your pin" cos she gave me her key
People envied us together, saying we looked pretty good
Pls help me find money cos I miss her so much
We went to all the exotic places together
And dined with the likes of Gucci and Luis Vuitton
I realized how much I needed her when she left
How even my friends left me because she left
She is cheating on me now with some other guy
She played me real good because I played around with her
She messed with my head so hard because I couldn't help but show off
But I did take her serious so I wish she would say she was just joking
I would tell you her name so just in case you see her
Let her know I miss her cause we have got the best of captured moments and cause her sister always welcomed me when I went to see her
She'd say "Welcome, please enter your pin" cos she gave me her key
People envied us together, saying we looked pretty good
Pls help me find money cos I miss her so much
Monday 7 March 2016
The Meeting Point
The arguments lingered
The target was understanding but every time they missed a shot
What was wrong?
In the same room but she couldn't hear him
She shouted at the top of her voice
He still couldn't hear her
She wasn't far away, but yet he couldn't reach her
What was wrong?
The love existed....
But what was wrong?
Someone got distracted
But who?
Did that really matter? Pointing fingers, problems not solved
Someone stopped trying
But who?
What happened to the altar?
The place of divine communication
How did they slip away from His presence?
No wonder the struggle was real
No wonder it got difficult daily
She never stopped trying, She just redirected her silence to Him
Still in the same room but walls apart
Go back to him, He has all the answers
Let's meet with the one who can fix it all
The target was understanding but every time they missed a shot
What was wrong?
In the same room but she couldn't hear him
She shouted at the top of her voice
He still couldn't hear her
She wasn't far away, but yet he couldn't reach her
What was wrong?
The love existed....
But what was wrong?
Someone got distracted
But who?
Did that really matter? Pointing fingers, problems not solved
Someone stopped trying
But who?
What happened to the altar?
The place of divine communication
How did they slip away from His presence?
No wonder the struggle was real
No wonder it got difficult daily
She never stopped trying, She just redirected her silence to Him
Still in the same room but walls apart
Go back to him, He has all the answers
Let's meet with the one who can fix it all
GIRL ARISE
You weren't made to sit and cry all day with the excuse of being emotional.
You weren't made to act based on their reactions.
You weren't made to settle for standards that don't match your stands.
You weren't structured to bend to structures created to break your structure.
Who told you had to compete with and for everything?
So you see her as a threat and she doesn't even have you in her thoughts.
So you feel you had got to compete to prove a point when she doesn't know you exist.
Girl arise
And when it's not HER, it's HIM
Living off his validation to scale through the day
And when there's no compliment, you carry a long face all day
And when he says "I love you", you arise like the sun
Girl arise
Don't feel judged, we most have being there
Hurt, broken, raped, depressed, disappointed....
Girl arise
He made you in His image and your validation and contentment is only complete in Him
You weren't made to act based on their reactions.
You weren't made to settle for standards that don't match your stands.
You weren't structured to bend to structures created to break your structure.
Who told you had to compete with and for everything?
So you see her as a threat and she doesn't even have you in her thoughts.
So you feel you had got to compete to prove a point when she doesn't know you exist.
Girl arise
And when it's not HER, it's HIM
Living off his validation to scale through the day
And when there's no compliment, you carry a long face all day
And when he says "I love you", you arise like the sun
Girl arise
Don't feel judged, we most have being there
Hurt, broken, raped, depressed, disappointed....
Girl arise
He made you in His image and your validation and contentment is only complete in Him
You and I together
If it's depth could be as deep as deep
Then it's distance can't be farther than close
Cos it's in such memories of you, I see true meanings
I have fallen deeply, closer than your breath
I am a dictionary of verbs with silent screams
Help me show you how actions speak louder
I will cause our lightening with a silent thunder
All will see our sparks but will not under our frictions
I want to stay having the highest shares in your heart
I won't even allow your heart go public
I want all to see we can do it together
And hope they see the world through our eyes
Then it's distance can't be farther than close
Cos it's in such memories of you, I see true meanings
I have fallen deeply, closer than your breath
I am a dictionary of verbs with silent screams
Help me show you how actions speak louder
I will cause our lightening with a silent thunder
All will see our sparks but will not under our frictions
I want to stay having the highest shares in your heart
I won't even allow your heart go public
I want all to see we can do it together
And hope they see the world through our eyes
Wednesday 2 March 2016
The Groove of Trust
There goes my beat, that unending rhythm
So steady with that time signature
Then comes the breaks with its sick nature
The more you feel out, you are in for sure
All I had to do was know it's gonna be right
As long as I stay in perfect harmony with all my might
It amazes me when I realize it's all about timing
So even when it seems am wrong, Its simply an odd timing
As long as everyone and no one enjoys the groove
I pursue peace and harmony with my grooves and listening groovers
All it takes is a simple believe it's gonna be nice and just
It's that groove and beat I love called Trust
So steady with that time signature
Then comes the breaks with its sick nature
The more you feel out, you are in for sure
All I had to do was know it's gonna be right
As long as I stay in perfect harmony with all my might
It amazes me when I realize it's all about timing
So even when it seems am wrong, Its simply an odd timing
As long as everyone and no one enjoys the groove
I pursue peace and harmony with my grooves and listening groovers
All it takes is a simple believe it's gonna be nice and just
It's that groove and beat I love called Trust
Tuesday 1 March 2016
Just listen
I am done giving up on giving up
If saying it hurts, not saying it cuts deeper
Am in a state of doing my undoing
Don't go but staying makes you farther
It's how I feel that makes me feel
How can I become that which I hate
Hating that which I hate in love
Unknowingly it creeps in deeper
And grows watered by my tears
Sunned by my beam of smiles
I am done holding on without a ray of hope
Like one dangling at the end of a pendulum bob
Your love you said was all you could give
Even then my heart's desires were never met
Gradually I knew I was losing grip
Now I am not sure I was ever your heart's fill
Can my tears fill up our love tank?
Can I walk you down the aisle, hand in hand?
If saying it hurts, not saying it cuts deeper
Am in a state of doing my undoing
Don't go but staying makes you farther
It's how I feel that makes me feel
How can I become that which I hate
Hating that which I hate in love
Unknowingly it creeps in deeper
And grows watered by my tears
Sunned by my beam of smiles
I am done holding on without a ray of hope
Like one dangling at the end of a pendulum bob
Your love you said was all you could give
Even then my heart's desires were never met
Gradually I knew I was losing grip
Now I am not sure I was ever your heart's fill
Can my tears fill up our love tank?
Can I walk you down the aisle, hand in hand?
Let me love you
If it's depth could be as deep as deep
Then it's distance can't be farther than close
Cos it's in such memories of you, I see true meanings
I have fallen deeply, closer than your breath
I am a dictionary of verbs with silent screams
Help me show you how actions speak louder
I will cause our lightening with a silent thunder
All will see our sparks but will not under our frictions
I want to stay having the highest shares in your heart
I won't even allow your heart go public
I want all to see we can do it together
And hope they see the world through our eyes.
Then it's distance can't be farther than close
Cos it's in such memories of you, I see true meanings
I have fallen deeply, closer than your breath
I am a dictionary of verbs with silent screams
Help me show you how actions speak louder
I will cause our lightening with a silent thunder
All will see our sparks but will not under our frictions
I want to stay having the highest shares in your heart
I won't even allow your heart go public
I want all to see we can do it together
And hope they see the world through our eyes.
Just Friends
Yeah I know it feels weird
But it's too beautiful to be bad
Now it's scary cos it might be a masquerade
If we happen to be more than what we are
Now that's cos we have become more than I can describe
No one understands when I sing all that jazz
It's already more than the music for mature minds
They go with the sarcastic reply "Just friends, yeah right"
And then I am lost in my definition
A new synonym is added in its oxymoron
She has become my doubted confidante
But only to the minds who refuse to see
If am gonna kick that bucket, it's definitely not your water in it
But it's too beautiful to be bad
Now it's scary cos it might be a masquerade
If we happen to be more than what we are
Now that's cos we have become more than I can describe
No one understands when I sing all that jazz
It's already more than the music for mature minds
They go with the sarcastic reply "Just friends, yeah right"
And then I am lost in my definition
A new synonym is added in its oxymoron
She has become my doubted confidante
But only to the minds who refuse to see
If am gonna kick that bucket, it's definitely not your water in it
Love me for me
I can't make you do it anymore
Why wouldn't you just return it?
The sun knows when to go down
The moon says to herself "I'm up next"
But then the moon just reflects rays from the sun
As it continues orbiting the sun in the long run
No competition in all this, let me be there for you
And you be there for me when I am down
Let me rub off on you based on the moments created
Show me who you spend time with and you'd see their reflection in you
I need you to be there for me and cover me in my dark
So please love me for me in all times and phases
Cos together we will have our renewals like the full and new moon
Standing by even at my brightest time too
I can't make you do it anymore cos it's all about Love and Respect
Why wouldn't you just return it?
The sun knows when to go down
The moon says to herself "I'm up next"
But then the moon just reflects rays from the sun
As it continues orbiting the sun in the long run
No competition in all this, let me be there for you
And you be there for me when I am down
Let me rub off on you based on the moments created
Show me who you spend time with and you'd see their reflection in you
I need you to be there for me and cover me in my dark
So please love me for me in all times and phases
Cos together we will have our renewals like the full and new moon
Standing by even at my brightest time too
I can't make you do it anymore cos it's all about Love and Respect
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